It's my fault. It's my fault this cycle didn't work.
I took a al.eve on Friday. I was desperate. I knew it wasn't recommended. I knew I needed some relief. After I talked to the nurse on Saturday morning, of course I didn't take any more. Just the one.
Apparently, according to Dr. Goo.gle, I also interrupted implantation.
Fuck. One fucking pill.
What the hell is wrong with me. Maybe I'm in denial. Of high risk. Of what it's really going to take. Of what I'm capable of.