Thursday, October 29, 2009

Duh - with bonus

Negatory.

So glad I dragged my ass down there in the dark this morning.

WTF consult on Monday, 3pm. We have a credit of almost $1000. Insurance has been paying more than expected. Maybe I'll ask for a check. We could use that cash. Or maybe we should just leave it there, dedicated TTC money.

I really don't know.

Maybe. I should tell my sister not to push so hard to come to NY for Thanksgiving. C mentioned that it may be hard for me to see everyone ooh and ahh over her and the baby. he has a point.

And my optimism is waning.

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Bonus: A (my sister) sent me an email today (responding to my negative email) mentioning that my dad apparently wants to have a "thing," a party of some type for some friends and family so they can meet my niece. Makes perfect sense.

I really don't see me making it.

What's nice is that A totally understands.

What sucks is no Thanksgiving. It's been pretty hard since my mom died. We always had a big dinner at the house. A special trip home from college. A good reason to visit. Chestnut Stuffing. She could never remember who liked white potatoes and who liked sweet ones, so she always made a ton of both.

So, yeah. I'll go to NY another time. I'll see everyone another time. Probably be cheaper, anyway.

Great.

8 comments:

Tash said...

Well fuck.

Please take care of yourself, rest up, and rid of that fucking infection once and for all.

I'm in a place where I don't want to see ANY family for holidays this year, babies or no. But that's just me and my family./wink

Jonathan said...

Family Thanksgivings - Oy. When my mother was alive, they were a trial. One year she said "No one should feel they have to come," so no one did! We went to the Mt Washington Hotel. It was one of my favorite Thanksgivings.

So I recommend a quiet weekend at a country inn.

Either way, it's hard... but think about some quiet time for yourself.

Love!

Astrid said...

Bummer. Sorry. But good that the insurance component is in check. I don't know quite how I'm going to get through the holidays either - for me it's not so much new babies but comments about why don't me and DH make a couple already. If they only knew. Maybe eventually they will realize there's a problem. Sigh.

Anonymous said...

thanksgiving is hard. if we were going to be in town i'd invite you over! but we've learned to celebrate with our families of choice, which means we're leaving this place to go be with our not-this-place-peeps.

i think you and c should find a way to make this special. just about the two of you. and whatever is going on with your cycle. just be together, shut out the world. go for walks, sleep in late. even if it's only for two days.

wow. now *i* want to do that. :)

-carole

Julia said...

Oh, Sue... I am sorry. About all of it. It's good that your sister understands, but it sucks that you have to make this choice.

Anonymous said...

Can you please explain why you have not tried IVF? Maybe I missed it in an old post. Thank you.

CDE said...

Hi Anonymous -

I can't speak for my wife, but yes, we could explain why we haven't tried IVF. However, I fail to see why either of us should be obligated to provide you with an answer.

Betty M said...

I'm sorry that things have turned out this way.