I hate that, too. I haven't done it in quite some time. I hate that even more.
I hate that my stomach still *looks* a bit prenant, and it's been 13 months. Seriously, I get a mom body for THIS?
I do that sometimes too. I never did it before (was self conscious of that area!). You know what I hate about it too? You can pick out a pg woman who isn't showing yet out of a crowd for it. When she has that "no one knows but me" look. Oy.
I hate that my insides feel so hollow, so empty. I hate that my belly is soft. I hate my body. I hate that my body did this to me.
My belly is soft too. I lost weight during the pregnancy, but I still have the belly. I bawled through my first "yoga for fertility" class because I realized how much I had been hating my body for not doing what it should, for killing off my very early pregnancies. Over the next 6 or 8 months I came to forgive myself and my body, as fruity as that sounds. That's totally over. I hate it again. I'm afraid of what it will or won't do. I'm afraid to trust it.
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