Friday, March 28, 2008

I quit

I can't do this anymore. I'm not strong enough. It's all just too much. I can't function. I can't think. I can't do anything.

It just hurts too much.

I give up.

6 comments:

Amy said...

You are strong enough, I know you are. Hang in there. I can't tell you it'll get easier or any of that, what I can tell you is that we all care about you and CDE. Somehow we all make it thru this crappy fire, I'm not positive how but we do.

I know it's so hard, all of it. I am sorry about all of it.

G said...

I'm sorry hun, hang in there. I am here if you need someone to "talk" to - lellowg at gmail dot com.

Hugs.

luna said...

I have been there. and back. that's when a deep guttoral cry or primal scream helps ground me back in my body, even though it's not even where I want to be. you have strength you never even knew existed. ~luna

meg said...

I know how much it hurts. No one here will tell you that it can be fixed. We know it won't, but we will be here to listen and support you, in any way we can.

And you may feel like quitting today, but tomorrow might feel a tiny bit better. I sure hope it will.

Tash said...

Maybe you can't do THIS, but you can eat a chocolate bar. Or soak in a tub with a mystery novel. Or find something to do to get through the next five minutes. And then the next five. And the next.

I've quit so many times. I talk about the cave I used to crawl into. Just make sure your cave has a back to lean against, and if it doesn't, get in touch with one of us, please.

Antigone said...

I've wanted to quit. The despair receded enough to give me room to breath and I just focused on getting through the day or the night. Pills and alcohol only made things worse for me during those lows.

We're all here for you. Email, phone, whatever you want.