Friday, December 19, 2008

Apologies

For pulling back so much. I am reading a little less, commenting a little less, mostly because everything hurts. But I am thinking of CLC and Kalakly and C. and G$ and Amy and Mrs. Spit and all those with recent anniversaries, and all those in pain and those I've left out. Honestly, I'm so sorry I can't seem to reach out.

I think about you and wish I had something good to say to you. But you are in my thoughts and in my heart.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wishing you a peaceful Christmas.
With all the love I can send. Ms.Jess

Mrs. Spit said...

And that's a not bad place for Gabe and I to be.

You concentrate on that wee one, we'll wait and send you love and strength.

Sometimes you can give, and sometimes you can't.

Amy said...

No apologies needed. Sometimes we pull away to protect ourselves, it's all good.

You are in my thoughts and my heart too and I appreciate being in yours.

I hold you close to my heart these days, it's a rough time to come upon. Please know, I will always be here, awaiting your return, awaiting your words.

Much love and peace to you. XO Amy

CLC said...

An apology is unnecessary. This is a horrible time of year normally, and then the addded trauma of your babies' anniversary does not help. You are in my thoughts and prayers too. And I just read your last post- I am glad your friend got it, at least as much as she could. She's right- it's only a year. It's such a short period of time in the grand scheme of things. And it's unrealistic to think you should be "better". It is just way too hard, and way too painful. I hope you are extra good to yourself this week. Your boys are in my thoughts.

Xbox4NappyRash said...

The wanting to hide away is normal.
As normal as anything is,I suppose.

Take your time and look after yourself.

c. said...

You don't need to apologize. I'm feeling the same way, the need to pull back, read less, get away from all the heartache I feel. I think of you and the twins all the time. Holding you close, Sue. So very close. XO.

G$ said...

No apology, lady (and why, oh why did you make me have Nirv.ana songs in my head?). It's not easy this time of year and pulling back is the only thing that's keeping me from crumpling.

Much love to you, you and the boys are always in my heart.

Tash said...

My apologies for not getting to this post until now. No need for you to step back, especially now. I relived my last week and days in vivid technicolor -- amusing, given that I had completely lost my short term memory and I couldn't even tell you what I had for breakfast a few hours earlier.

Know we're here for you, remembering right with you, even if you're not posting. I'm so sorry S.

Tash said...

I meant no need to APOLOGIZE for stepping back right now -- gah, whoops. I apologize for commenting when I should be sleeping.

k@lakly said...

I suck at comenting and blogging right now. You have every reason to want to pull inward right now. Don't apologize for being a normal, grieving mom. Losing your boys is hard enough, having the loss come on Christmas Day is just cruel.
Know that you are being thought of by many and that no matter how it feels, you are not alone, ever.
xxoo

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