Sunday, November 9, 2008

And I'm just so tired

Of having nothing else to say.

I'm just so tired of feeling like this.

8 comments:

G$ said...

Oh hun, it is tiring, isn't it. Even though I don't like to hug, I would give you big ackward, uncomfortable, squeeze you til you yell at me to let you go, hugs right now. I am thinking of you, wishing I could help in some way.

xo

c. said...

I know you are. I know...

XO.

Anonymous said...

I stumbled acrossed it looking for a website. I didn't mean to, but I did. I wish there were some way to "make it all better". I know there isn't and so all I can say is hang in there, it will be good again. Please just believe that it will be good again. I will not give up hope and I don't want you to either. Hang in there.

-K (in the hospital in NYC)

Sue said...

K, would you email me here or at my home address? I'm sorry you stumbled, here. I hope I didn't offend.

birdsandsquirrels said...

Sue,
I stumbled onto your blog yesterday and spent hours reading your story. I am so sorry that you are feeling like this. Thank you so much for your honesty. I have struggled with depression on and off for at least the past ten years. I am tapering down my antidepressant for trying to conceive (PCOS, male factor, 7 failed clomid cycles, moving on to injectables and IUI), and I've been thrown into the pit for the past few months, and I can so relate to your feelings. I can't get pregnant, so I have not had a loss, and I don't know the hell you and your husband have been through. I can only imagine it, and my heart breaks for you. The post from the other day, about how do you find happy again had such wonderful comments - things I want to write down and keep nearby for me. I don't have any good suggestions, as I'm still in the pit myself, but I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you, and hoping the meds start helping more and more, and that little by little, you will start feeling better.
-J

twondra said...

I found you through Stirrups. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I too have been very depressed since our transfer was cancelled for our IVF. It's so hard to feel so down. I'm thinking of you. (((HUGS)))

Bree said...

I also just found you through LFCA.

I have been through crippling depression. I know what it's like to just feel numb, to not be able to enjoy anything, to wonder if you can even complete a simple task like taking a shower. I know that right now, no matter how many people tell you that you WILL feel better someday, it's impossible to believe.

Sometimes in the midst of depression, I've had little moments of emergence, when I catch myself laughing or realize I've been singing with the radio. Although they don't last long, they give me hope.

I hope that you have at least one glimpse of joy this week, and will be thinking about you.

nikole said...

thinking of you, and sending you strength