How will you deal with Mother's Day this year? Seriously. I'm looking for ideas.
I've been thinking about this a lot, and the best plan I can come up with is to spend more money than we should to be on a plane to Boston that day. Our wedding anniversary is the next day, and seeing as we met in Boston, it might be a nice, nostalgic visit. Boston in May. With 25,000 graduating college students, but still.
And maybe we could get a consult at the Brigham*, just for kicks, while we're there. Get educated about how a possible future pg might be treated and get a tax deduction for medical expenses. Maybe take in a movie at the Coolidge Corner Theater up Beacon Street in Brookline. Some chicken soup at Zaftig's.
Then I was thinking we could stay until the 19th, which is the boys' due date. Travel on that day, too. My goal is to be so busy and stressed with departure times, etc., that I don't think too much.
Also, the anniversary of my mother's death is Sunday, May 4. Generally, I've been okay around that day, but I know this one will be hard. If I'm making plans to travel, maybe that will help.
Or perhaps I'm being too optimistic about my ability to avoid. Like it won't come back to bite me in the ass two days later, leaving me a wet, sobbing mess in the middle of some airport waiting room.
HSG is in the morning. Hopefully my RE will still remember where my cervix is since it's been a while (I'm kinda twisted, apparently). Hoping it won't hurt too much. As I recall the last time, the worst part was him actually navigating my cervix. Certainly, I'm a different person/patient from the one I was the last time.
Okay. Yes, I've completely lost my mind. I took an am*bien an hour ago, which is loosening my fingers, but yeah. Basically I've lost it. And this is just the hsg. Have to find out if it's worth it to do all the Day 3 testing again, since it's been two years and I'll be 38 in a couple of months. (And family history kinda dictates.) And the PCOS testing again. Maybe a glucose screening.
Can you see my doctor's eyebrows jumping up off his forehead as I ask him about this? Whoa, there. Yeah, I know.
One of the big questions, though, is the twin question. We've gotten pregnant 4 times with IUI. The only one that really "took" was a twin pg, the cycle he tweaked the fsh dosage that seemed to create the right environment. With IUI, there is very little control over how many follicles might ovulate and get fertilized. And implant. And grow. The peri (one I didn't care for) said without question, I should not carry twins again. There's no way to control for this with medicated IUI. Unmedicated IUI seems to be pointless with all our issues.
And IVF? Have I mentioned that we are broke graduate students up to our eyeballs in debt for programs not yet finished?
And if we can find an OB we can trust before even trying to get pg.
Me? Getting ahead of myself? No idea. Never do that. Nope.
Wish me luck in the HSG. Hoping there will be no passing out (a la Newt), two wide open tubes and a rich fertile environment (no scarring please) just waiting for us to grow something human in it. When we're ready. More ready.
I think the amby is telling me it's time for bed. C is, too. Thanks for listening, and for your recent comments. Keep 'em coming.
And help me out with that Mother's day, thing, too?
*Any recommendations for High Risk OBs in Boston, NY, LA or Chicago are welcomed. In addition to my trusted RE's recommendation, I would like to get other opinions in big-gish cities.