When do I get to be me again? When do I get *through* this, you know "the only way out is through" through. I'm tired of feeling up and down and up and down and down and down and down. I'm tired of being so unfocused I keep looking for things to focus on -- except it's everything but what i need to do. What I need to do to take care of myself, to move my life forward, to remedy the practical damage done.
I'm so scattered. And I can't settle on anything. I can't relax.
It's like everything is too hot to touch. Too sharp. Too deep.
I don't even know what I'm talking about.
I'm just so tired of this.