Day 6

Bloaty.

Three days of stims, so far. One more tonight, ultrasound tomorrow morning. My pants are already feeling tighter -- need to adjust my belt. How's that for a lovely image?

Tomorrow is two years since the first beta with the boys. My first really good, positive beta. 568 at 16dpo.

It's kind of odd doing all this during this time of year: similar, but not. And I'm actually not perseverating or freaking out all over the place. Not yet, anyway. I'm not relaxed, but not nearly as anxious as I would have thought. Even when I worry, it's tempered.

Maybe it's the acupuncture. Day 1 was exactly a week after my appointment, and my RE was like, "you're so different." Everyone says I look good. Generally, I feel good. Positive, even. Guess that dragon thing really worked. And the anxiety thing, too. I go for one more treatment before the IUI. Fertility thing, I guess.

I've been wanting to write, but right now, I can't remember what I wanted to talk about. Since I have to get back to work (schoolwork for class this afternoon), I guess I'll leave it at that.

Is this what normal feels like? What good feels like? It's so odd. New.

We shall see, I guess. I'll post after the ultrasound tomorrow, or after I'm done teaching for the day. Thank you for all your well wishes as we begin this journey again. Or, rather, this part of the journey. I'm so glad to have you here with me.