I'm afraid it's coming back. I'm hoping it's just seasonal cues, the smells and the light of August. I find myself going back to posts from a year ago, when it was starting to get really bad.
I haven't been sleepng well since I got back from Chi. Either too long or not nearly enough.
I cried today -- just now while brushing my teeth -- like I haven't cried in weeks, months, really. I think it's been building.
Sort of an upsurge in grief in DBL. Or at least an articulation of it. Things are starting to trigger me, more easily, I mean.
Just here and there. I met with the pharma and with my shrink, both of whom seemed pleased with my state of mind -- as I presented it today.
Maybe it's delayed crap from my trips to CA and Chi. And planning in starting TTC again, in September or Oct. Meeting with the RE on the 10th to make a plan. Pharma has already talked to RE about use of A-Ds. So probably I won't have to make a change. Perhaps a reduction, based on how I'm doing at our next appt. Not looking good from here, tho.
Oh, I just want to sleep. I just want to curl up and cry.
Denial. Not just a river in Egypt.