Sunday, August 23, 2009

You know it's bad when...

I'm willingly watching a Ha.llmark movie late on Saturday night. And crying.

The one where Rosie O'Don.nell plays a woman who is retarded*. The dad dies and she rebuilds her relationship with her sister, played by Andie Mac.Dowell, who I really don't like anyway. It's a horrible movie.

Anyway. I'm sitting here with the dog laying against me and I'm crying.

I laid in bed under the covers for a couple hours today (with dog and cat, of course), just feeling anxious. Dozing. Then did 6 loads of laundry.

(Oh, good, now, the Da.wn commercial with the ducks covered in grease.)

Just feeling everything. Loss. Fear. Anxiety. Pressure. Loss. Rinse. Repeat.

Too much to detail right now. Just had to get that out.

God, I hate this

*And sterilized without her permission, mourns her ability to have a baby.


Nikole said...

Thinking of you and sending you strength.

Heather said...

That Dawn commercial gets me so, so bad.

I hate this for you, too.

Michele said...

I'd be crying too. (and actually I cry over that Dawn commercial... sad, I know...)

Mrs. Spit said...

I haven't seen the Dawn commercial, but I make it a practice to never, ever watch Hallmark movies when I'm sad.

Sending Hugs sue. Yesterday was a bad day. Tomorrow is another day, and doesn't have to be the continuation of yesterday.

Aunt Becky said...

The Dawn commercial gets me. So does the one for the ASPCA with that "Angel" song playing. I literally CANNOT watch it.

Anonymous said...

I'm envious. A dog, a couch, a blanket and a good cry. Tea and shortbread would be nice too. Nice and cozy.


k@lakly said...

TORTURE!!! Better off watching espn:)

CLC said...

Sometimes it's best to go stick your head in the sand and avoid movies like that. At least that works for me these days. Given that my head is in the sand, I know almost nothing about current events anymore!

erica said...

This sounds like a very, very hard day. I wish you didn't have to go through all of this.

The Da.wn commercial gets me, too. I'm kind of glad, now that I think of it, that our cable isn't connected yet.