I'm willingly watching a Ha.llmark movie late on Saturday night. And crying.
The one where Rosie O'Don.nell plays a woman who is retarded*. The dad dies and she rebuilds her relationship with her sister, played by Andie Mac.Dowell, who I really don't like anyway. It's a horrible movie.
Anyway. I'm sitting here with the dog laying against me and I'm crying.
I laid in bed under the covers for a couple hours today (with dog and cat, of course), just feeling anxious. Dozing. Then did 6 loads of laundry.
(Oh, good, now, the Da.wn commercial with the ducks covered in grease.)
Just feeling everything. Loss. Fear. Anxiety. Pressure. Loss. Rinse. Repeat.
Too much to detail right now. Just had to get that out.
God, I hate this
*And sterilized without her permission, mourns her ability to have a baby.