Sunday, May 18, 2008

Shoulda Woulda Coulda

Monday's the day. The official due date.

We would have been parents by now. We should have been parents by now.


I am weighed down by empty arms.

20 comments:

Busted said...

I'm so sorry. I know that for me, the most painful thing I can do (but which I do constantly) is think of how things should be, what I should be doing now. I'm sure tomorrow will be very difficult. I hope you and C can help each other get through it, and look forward to when it's just another day, rather than "the" day.

Antigone said...

Oh S. Take care of yourself as best you can tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you. I wish there was something I could do to ease the pain.

Tash said...

Thinking of you both today. I'm so so sorry. I hope you can find a way through today together.

Amy said...

I am thinking of you both. I too, am so sorry. I know it's a tough day, hell a tough life, but you have eachother...stick together and you can and will get through this.

Big hugs to both of you today.

Newt said...

Thinking of you and C and Joshua and Jacob. I hope today is healing.

Sara said...

Such a hard, sad day. I'm sorry.

Aunt Becky said...

I'm so sorry. This day must just be brutal.

I'm holding you, C, and your darling Joshua and Jacob in my heart today.

Katie said...

I am so sorry.

I wish there was more that I could do or say.

Amy said...

My heart aches for you.

CLC said...

Thinking of you and C today and hoping that you do something special for yourselves. I'm sorry.

Kymberli said...

I am thinking of you today.

Ya Chun said...

I am so sorry S and C. Hold on to each other.

luna said...

thinking of you both today and sending some virtual love.

Antigone said...

Thinking of you guys.

Foreverloves said...

Yup. You should have been. This whole thing f-cking sucks. I can't say it any better than that. It just BLOWS. It's not fair.

B said...

The ache of empty arms.

How they long to feel the weight of your little ones.

Hold something close to you. I am so so sad that it is not Jacob and Joshua. They have beautiful names. I am sure they would have been beautiful boys.

Sending love and prayers to you

Barb

A.M.S. said...

Here with you.

Much love.

Betty M said...

Thinking of you too.

Busted said...

Just checking in again, hoping that yesterday wasn't any worse than it had to be. Thinking of you and C.

c. said...

Thinking of you, STE. I'm so sorry your arms are empty. Hope you made it through yesterday the best you could. XO.