Well, it's tax time. I knew this was going to come up, at least for me.
Joshua was born still.
Jacob had cardiac activity. "briefly" is what the record said. They did not give me a birth certificate, but my understanding is that in my state if I baby lives for even a few moments, he or she is considered to have lived. Not only did I not get a birth certificate for him, the death certificates had the wrong names and (I think) the incorrect times of birth.
Does "brief cardiac activity" count? I'm not looking for a pat on the back here, if it doesn't I will let it go. I will. But if it does count as "life", Jacob should be counted on our tax return. It feels so morbid, saying, "so, does my dead baby get me a $3500 deduction, or what?"
I have a couple of people in mind whom I might be able to contact, though the idea of dealing with all this bureacracy fills me with dread. And it might be too late anyway.
Part of what touched me so much when my aunt lit those yarzheit candles was that she was remembering them, acknowledging them, their presences, their lives, however brief.
Am I just asking for trouble if I start asking the state to do the same thing? To make, at least Jacob's life, official?
I welcome your thoughts.