All I really want is to be normal.
To feel normal. Not this 'new normal', but some semblance of the person I was, I was becoming the one who was looking forward to life and challenges and making something of herself despite all those years of doubt. The one who finally said, yes, I can do this. I like this person. She will do great things.
All I want is to feel normal without feeling like something is missing, something is off. Like something is wrong because I'm not miserable.
All I really want is to move forward into my life. Not even confidently. Just not shaking with fear. Not weeping with indecision. Not tied to some past dream that may or may not ever come true.