Does it ever come back? That feeling of peace right before you fall asleep. You know, aside from the bills that need to get paid, and the lawn that needs to get mowed and that report that needs to be completed... Aside from all that.
I'm laying here in the dark pretty much weaned off the amb.ien, down to a very small dose of Ati.van wondering if I will ever be able to go to sleep without the fear/anxiety/sadness/grief/whateverthehellitis hovering over me.
Just that sense of...peace is the only word I can think of, and it may not be the right one.
The being able to sleep without the sadness. Without wanting to quiet the thoughtsbeforesleep.