Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Heading Out, Again

Waiting for my ride to the airport, headed to Chicago. It's pouring rain. (Hi, Mom.) Still have about 45 minutes to wait.

I am really nervous. I'm not really sure why. I was fine until last night.

It's not that I'm having surgery, rather, I think that it's what it represents. Stepping back into the ttc process, hoping that this will do the trick. Though I have other issues, beyond the IC. Thinking about what's going to required to get me through a pregnancy, if I can even get pregnant. How many cycles, failed cycles, losses, will it take?

And I want it really badly now. Even more than before.

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I'll try to post more later. On the way to or at the airport, hotel, hosp...We've been without internet, so it's been hard to do a thoughtful, comprehensive post.

While we were in CA, my dad decided he wanted to meet me in Chicago for the surgery. This is fine; initially, I was feeling mixed, but since C won't be able to be there, I think it will be good to have that support. Hope he takes advantage of being in Chi and sees some of the city.


Thanks, again, for being there.

S

16 comments:

Michele said...

Prayers for the surgery... Please let us know how it goes...

Tash said...

Thinking of you, S. Let us know how it goes when you get a moment.

~S said...

I must have been under a rock...I didn't realize this was coming so soon. I think I've only commented once or twice, but I've been through this procedure. And since you are doing it in Chi, I know it must be with my favorite doctor in the world. You said you know people who have been through this, right? Well, in any event, if you need to chat or ask questions or you get anxious (no need, really. You'll do great!), feel free to email me at indianaopenwindow at yahoo dot com and I'll send you my number. Thinking of you and praying for a quick recovery...

Newt said...

Safe journeys, friend.

erica said...

Thinking of you and hoping this goes really, really well.

Ya Chun said...

I hope the procedure goes well, and does the trick!

Bluebird said...

Thinking of you. Hoping everything goes smoothly and that this does, indeed, do the trick!

Julia said...

Hoping it all goes well for you. I understand the apprehension. Making the decision to step back into it, especially when it's such a big step that is required for it.
All I can say is that when I was in that place, the friends in the computer really helped. A lot. Hoping that we can help lighten your load too.

Celine said...

I've been following your blog for a while. Good luck. I'm getting a TAC at the end of August myself. I'm hoping everything goes well.

Betty M said...

Best wishes for a successful procedure.

CLC said...

I hope everything went well. Let us know when you get a chance!

Aunt Becky said...

Love you, Sue. Been thinking of you tons.

wifey said...

Thinking of you, and hoping for the best for you!

Bonny said...

Hope that everything went well.

Anonymous said...

I had this procedure when I was 12 weeks pregnant with twins. Everything went well and they were born healthy at 35 weeks. My other two "surprise" babies were born full-term. I had the vaginal cerclage with my first pregnacy, triplets, and it didn't hold at all. They were born at 24 weeks and all died within 2 weeks. I am sorry so for your boys.... I've been there, it does get easier (especially if you go on to have living children to raise and love, but the triplets have forever changed me and I still think of them everyday. I hope you go on to have a healthy pregnancy. Getting the TAC was the right thing to do. Mine is still holding strong after 7 years and 4 babies. Take care! I enjoy your blog.

Jonathan said...

Hope everything goes well!