Waiting for my ride to the airport, headed to Chicago. It's pouring rain. (Hi, Mom.) Still have about 45 minutes to wait.
I am really nervous. I'm not really sure why. I was fine until last night.
It's not that I'm having surgery, rather, I think that it's what it represents. Stepping back into the ttc process, hoping that this will do the trick. Though I have other issues, beyond the IC. Thinking about what's going to required to get me through a pregnancy, if I can even get pregnant. How many cycles, failed cycles, losses, will it take?
And I want it really badly now. Even more than before.
I'll try to post more later. On the way to or at the airport, hotel, hosp...We've been without internet, so it's been hard to do a thoughtful, comprehensive post.
While we were in CA, my dad decided he wanted to meet me in Chicago for the surgery. This is fine; initially, I was feeling mixed, but since C won't be able to be there, I think it will be good to have that support. Hope he takes advantage of being in Chi and sees some of the city.
Thanks, again, for being there.