Thursday, December 25, 2008

A new year begins

7:13 am and I am awake. Already walked the dog (briefly) and fed her. There is just a bit of pink at the bottom of a blue night sky.

Bolted awake at 6:45, despite meds (the good stuff) at 1:30 am. C wanted to spend the day in bed, together, cozy and half asleep. I'd like to, but my heart is pounding already, and I'm trying to figure out how much I have to space the klo.nopin. Or amb.ien. Or maybe it's just too much sugar from the cookies eaten right before bed.

I'll likely check in throughout the day, fill in blanks as they come to me, perhaps.

Thank you for being here as I get all this down.

Thank you all so much for your kind supportive words. I have read every single one more than once. They mean more than I could ever say.

I wish you all a wonderful holiday, and may the new year be brighter than the past.



Tash said...

Yes, it does. Peaceful day to you both.

Anonymous said...

peace to you, sue. you're in my heart and thoughts.

Busted said...

A brighter new year for everyone sounds marvelous. Thinking of you today and I'll be checking in throughout the day while taking breaks from channel surfing to avoid holiday programming.

Anonymous said...

Sue, I am thinking of all of you today. My heart is breaking for you as you relive this nightmare.

Julia said...

A peaceful day, and a brighter year to you.

I am here, and listening. Will check in a few more times today. You are not alone, even when on your worst days.

Mrs. Spit said...

Still with you, still walking beside you.

You are close to my heart and mind today.

c. said...

I wish the exact same thing for you, Sue. XO.

loribeth said...

Amen. Thinking of you & C. today.

k@lakly said...

Same to you and tenfold more.

Martin said...

I've read all these posts pop in over the last day or two and my heart just aches more and more.

I wish you all the best.

Amy said...

Hoping it was a peaceful day for you and wishing you only the BEST of the BEST in 2009.