Friday, July 8, 2011

Processing

For most of last semester, I met with my dissertation adviser who was/is supportive in every way.  We'd talk about what I would do for our next meeting, and I would complete it, sort of -- mostly in the hour (30 mins?) before each meeting.  I felt kind of ashamed, like I should really have been doing so much more (and really I should have), but she was always pleased with what I came with, and found really good thinking and focus in what I showed her.  I would leave feeling mixed -- both proud and kind of like a fraud.  Like I'd gotten away with something. 

One day I came clean with her (mostly) and in talking about it with her, and with my therapist and a couple of others, it was universally suggested that I'm simply processing and then getting my ideas, the results of my processing down on paper (usually) in advance of our meetings. My thinking, they suggest, is productive, I just don't work like some other folks do. I need to do a lot of work in my head, rather than on paper. Sometimes.

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So.  Hi.  For those of you who still stop by, I'd like to apologize for my long absence.  Much of it has been practical distraction (sick dog, sick car, tired feet) and some has been mental distraction.  Not reading, not reading for school, not reading for fun, not reading blogs much (forgive me, my friends).  I guess that I'm processing.  Therapy, life. You know.

So, I'm off to take care of a few more of those practical things, but I hope to be back in the next few days to share some of the (mundane?) details and some things I've been thinking about. 

It's been an odd summer, I tell you. But I have been thinking about you despite my silence:  So.  How are you?  What have you been up to? 

10 comments:

Tash said...

Hi Sue! I'm glad to hear you're processing, and have a number of really supportive people in your life right now. Yay!

It's mofo'in hot here, lately. My garden has just gone kerfluey, so I'm madly googling what to do with Zucchini and cucumber. And watching Tour de France. And trying to run when it's not a bad air quality day. Probably eating too much pie.

Sue said...

Tash, when I was a kid, my mom was in that same situation -- she made a lot of zucchini bread. A LOT of zucchini bread.

Also? No such thing as too much pie.

It Is What It Is said...

Good to hear from you and look forward to hearing more in the coming days.

Love's mom FOREVER said...

Glad you are back! Yours and your husbands blogs were one of the first ones I started reading after my daughter died. I have been thinking about you and hoping things were getting better. Looking forward to hearing more about what you have been up to. Me? We bought a house and moved, and I am starting my own business which I am really excited about (ever heard of Mila? I am an independent distributor and loving every minute.)! All of these changes have been terrifying but have also helped a bit. And now I am just waiting for summer to start. The hot weather can come anyyyytimmmmmmmeeee.... (I am up in Canada).
Nice to hear from you!
Brooke

erica said...

Hi! Good to hear from you. I'm glad you have people around you who are supportive of processing and supportive in general. I'm trying to keep my clematis and the neighbors' cat (grr) alive and really trying to stop putting off my professional writing.

Also, I am taking a lot of evening walks and being grateful to live in a climate where it cools down so much at night even in July.

Sue said...

@It is: Thanks for being here.

@Love's Mom: Exciting changes afoot! Scary, but good, I would think? You want some heat? I have plenty.

erica: It seems like a lovely summer for you, overall.

Thanks, all for reading.

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