I'm sorry for the previous post. I'm sorry I spent time tonight looking for information online (info I couldn't get from my doctors). I'm sorry I put both you and me through the writing and reliving and recovering from the content of that post.
I'm going to go take the dog out, and I'm going to take a couple of pills and go to sleep for a very long time.
Thank you, all, my friends, for helping to make this all a little more bearable.
To paraphrase what my sister said on FB tonight, whether it's with Christmas cookies or fortune cookies, may you be happy.