Thursday, January 10, 2008

The beginning of the end

All I wanted for Christmas this year was to enjoy what seemed to be the cessation of my interminable morning sickness. A warm, quiet house on our last child-free Christmas, with day dreams of the happy chaos to come. That morning I woke up to a gush, knowing something was horribly wrong. It was the beginning of the end. My boys would not last; my husband and I -- our hearts broken -- would never be the same.

27 comments:

Searching said...

I'm so, so very sorry for the loss of your sons. You are in my prayers.

Kathy V said...

I am so sorry for both of your losses. Words just can't begin to explain what I feel for you. Hugs to you and your husband.

Jen said...

I was directed here from Stirrup Queens. I am just so sorry.

BrownEyedGirl said...

I'm so incrediably sorry for your loss. I know that words will never be enough, but I'm sorry. You and your husband are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your horrible loss. May you be granted comfort and shelter from your pain.

I'm thinking of you and your family.
-Dramalish

lori said...

i am so, so sorry for the loss of your boys. there are no words soft enough to acknowledge the sadness and heartbreak you and your DH are enduring.

my thoughts and prayers are with you.

lifefromhere said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words. I only hope that time can bring healing and peace to your family. ~luna

Ann said...

I am so, so sorry to hear about your loss. In November, I lost my son Zach at 20 weeks. There are times the hurt seems almost too much to bear.

I would love to hear more about your precious little boys.

SarahSews said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Ashleigh said...

I am so very sorry. I know there is nothing I can say that will ease your pain but I wanted you to know I'm listening and thinking of you

Bean said...

I found you via Lost and Found. I'm so sorry for your loss.

meg said...

STE, I'm so very sorry.

I just read this on the Lost and Found connections and my heart just aches for you.

I had a similar experience, with the rupturing of my membranes after an emergency cerclage. My twin girls didn't make it.

Please feel free to email me, if I can do anything at all. I know, that the support of this amazing on-line community has made a world of difference to me.

I am so, so sorry.

Stacie said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Life can be so cruel a lot of the time. Sending hugs.

Stacie

Ms. P said...

Am so incredibly sorry for your losses. I am not sure in what way I can be helpful or supportive to you but I am certainly here to try. Am sending many thoughts and prayers your way.

Thalia said...

so sorry to hear of your loss.

soapchick said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious boys. My heart aches for you and I will keep you and your husband in my prayers.

mymaybebaby said...

It is hard to know what to say. Words are not enough.

I am sorry that you have to go through this.

I hope you and your husband can find some comfort in eachother and in knowing that others do care.

Cibele said...

I am so sorry. Hoping and praying for healing for you. Hugs

mkv said...

I'm so sorry...we lost girl/boy twins at 23 weeks. I understand everything you are going through. I pray peace for you and your family. It's a long, hard road for sure.

Lea Bee said...

i am so very sorry for your losses. thinking of you and sending you love.

Jen said...

My heart caught in my throat when I read your sidebar and your post. I'm so sorry for your loss. When you're ready to begin blogging more, I hope that you will find strength and support from the rest of us. My many thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.

Vanessa said...

Welcome to blogland :) Needless to say that Im so sorry for the pain and devastation that your feeling, but know that you are gladly received in our fertility blogosphere, and I look forward to reading more in the future :)

Sunny said...

I am very sorry. No words can could even begin to help. HUGS!

Neenie/PawsNY said...

As you know, there are no words I can say or type to make a difference. Just wanted to take this opportunity to let you know that you have my prayers, thoughts, and positive vibes for you and your family. I cannot imagine your pain and I am so incredibly sorry for such a horrible loss of two precious babies. I wish you strength and lots of love and comfort in the upcoming weeks and months.

Bea said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your boys. That's a terrible thing to have happened. Please take care of each other.

Bea

passingwindows said...

I am so sorry that you had such a horrible Christmas. I have experienced PROM twice now and the trauma still haunts me. I hope you are taking good care of yourself and being gentle, it is an awful thing to go through and you deserve all the love and time and support you can surround yourself with.

Smiling said...

SO so sorry... you all are in my thoughts.