tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post5524236391183491876..comments2024-02-19T05:16:19.517-05:00Comments on So Dear and Yet So Far: Wake Me about Half Past MaySuehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03812637630030228124noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-50668800528575309032008-04-18T17:17:00.000-04:002008-04-18T17:17:00.000-04:00I drank *a lot* back in January and February. It ...I drank *a lot* back in January and February. It was the only thing I could do to take the edge off. And it did. Of course my tolerance is equally low. Two glasses of wine and I'm numb. <BR/><BR/>My husband and I fight a lot because he keeps pushing me to return to life. He won't leave me alone and bugs me until I shower and go to work or walk the dogs or something else I don't want to do. I've been so mad at him for it but I've just recently realized the guy is doing it because he thinks it's helping me. If he hadn't I think I'd be drunk right now.Antigonehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09206205690072218302noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-49387315910019962752008-04-18T12:03:00.000-04:002008-04-18T12:03:00.000-04:00Last spring/summer/fall I did drink more than I ha...Last spring/summer/fall I did drink more than I had before. I found that on tough days having a drink helped in several different ways, not necessarily all at the same time. There was just getting me to relax enough to fall asleep. But there was also the unplugging something in me where it made it easier to think or write. It's a legitimate coping strategy, I think, if you know what you are doing and why you are doing it. And if you can in fact do without. <BR/><BR/>I am sorry things are bad now. I find that it happens sometimes, often at the most unpredictable points...Juliahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09745262857388007041noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-63255261060025844272008-04-18T08:20:00.000-04:002008-04-18T08:20:00.000-04:00Boy do I get this. If the drugs didn't rob my mem...Boy do I get this. If the drugs didn't rob my memory, I could totally see why people just coast on them for their lifetimes. I also wished I could knock myself until enough "time passed" that I would feel better. Day by day is all I can advise -- ask yourself each day, and if you need it? take it. It's survival. The days eventually will get fewer and farther between, really they will. I wish I could speed it up for you. Take care.Tashhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07376651134993450207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-58729058346804669872008-04-18T06:35:00.000-04:002008-04-18T06:35:00.000-04:00You aren't alone thinking these things. I feel lik...You aren't alone thinking these things. I feel like I could have written this post, except you said it much better than I ever could.CLChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08030787972960755420noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-22056482409706198942008-04-18T02:10:00.000-04:002008-04-18T02:10:00.000-04:00I know this feeling all too well.I know this feeling all too well.niobehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10685766216611639434noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-2964554125885801112008-04-18T00:52:00.000-04:002008-04-18T00:52:00.000-04:00it is tempting when you just want to wake up and h...it is tempting when you just want to wake up and have the nightmare be over... but it's still there, and nothing can make it go away. that said, antidepressants or an occasional little helper that get you what you need to function on a daily basis could be helpful. <BR/><BR/>I've often been tempted by alcohol, I love me a good bottle of wine. but the truth is drinking can make me even more emotional which is not helpful. yes, seeking escape but also numbness and calm... wish I had something better to say. the fact that you are aware will help with conscious decision-making at least. thinking of you. ~luna<BR/><BR/>btw I liked your comment on mel's post today.lunahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15455301696832647867noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-37555652604863542202008-04-17T23:52:00.000-04:002008-04-17T23:52:00.000-04:00Thanks for reading, Newt. I appreciate your commen...Thanks for reading, Newt. I appreciate your comments and thoughts. My fingers are crossed for you.Suehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03812637630030228124noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-4423802214112975362008-04-17T23:50:00.000-04:002008-04-17T23:50:00.000-04:00I don't have anything smart to say, but I wanted t...I don't have anything smart to say, but I wanted to leave a comment. This is a really honest post. Thanks for writing it. Thinking about you.Newthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16517611200405647990noreply@blogger.com