tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post6850077358103684971..comments2024-02-19T05:16:19.517-05:00Comments on So Dear and Yet So Far: Just spewingSuehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03812637630030228124noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-62667077114566393192008-06-18T20:25:00.000-04:002008-06-18T20:25:00.000-04:00Hi, you don't know me. I found your blog indirectl...Hi, you don't know me. I found your blog indirectly through glow in the woods. I too lost twins after going through years of infertility. I could have written this post myself. Children dying is unfair no matter who it happens to...but it feels even more unfair when it happens to us, when we had to go through so much to get those children. I don't really believe in "tempting fate" but I have thought to myself how fascinating it is that I was supposed to be ~done~ after this pregnancy...and now I'm back where I started, only much, much sadder.Rebahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16739267142330427759noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-76896455154624330312008-06-18T16:51:00.000-04:002008-06-18T16:51:00.000-04:00I said a lot of anvil-like comments when I was pre...I said a lot of anvil-like comments when I was pregnant, and I can't decide what about that hurts exactly -- that I somehow jinxed it? Or that I should've known?<BR/><BR/>And I've said it before, but infertility and babyloss are two really ugly vines when they get twisted together inseparably like this. I'm not really sure what I want, anymore.Tashhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07376651134993450207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-22289912904143738852008-06-18T00:15:00.000-04:002008-06-18T00:15:00.000-04:00I hope you get another chance, STE. I don't know i...I hope you get another chance, STE. I don't know if you even want to read my comments because infertility is not something I've ever known. I am so sorry that you have to deal with this in addition to losing your boys. It's just so unfair and wrong.c.https://www.blogger.com/profile/02933776400434137451noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-88709588123911171282008-06-17T18:27:00.000-04:002008-06-17T18:27:00.000-04:00I understand this completely. I have such rage too...I understand this completely. I have such rage too. And I want the same thing, but am so fearful of it happening again. It's just not fair for any of us.CLChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08030787972960755420noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-84964801895354077132008-06-17T11:30:00.000-04:002008-06-17T11:30:00.000-04:00I know exactly what you mean -- the irrational fee...I know exactly what you mean -- the irrational feeling that I must have somehow jinxed myself by being too happy, too hopeful.niobehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10685766216611639434noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-27484929207564024292008-06-17T10:44:00.000-04:002008-06-17T10:44:00.000-04:00Anger and rage really sum me up lately. If saying...Anger and rage really sum me up lately. <BR/><BR/>If saying something like that really jinxed us, think of all the stupid ass other things you have said...G$https://www.blogger.com/profile/05010373805685335151noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-38862742253108252912008-06-17T01:39:00.000-04:002008-06-17T01:39:00.000-04:00yes, a thousand times yes.yes, a thousand times yes.lunahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15455301696832647867noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-11825840275213198642008-06-16T23:54:00.000-04:002008-06-16T23:54:00.000-04:00I trust that you can do this, because you want it ...I trust that you can do this, because you want it so badly. When we want something so badly, our hearts cry out. <BR/><BR/>I understand the rage. It's normal. But hard to live with.Mrs. Spithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03386820063407910064noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-4283775449492432622008-06-16T23:06:00.000-04:002008-06-16T23:06:00.000-04:00RAGE is exactly right. None of it is ok, and none ...RAGE is exactly right. None of it is ok, and none of it makes sense. I hope with all of my heart that you get to be pg again and that you get your live baby at the end of the journey. I so get the fear, I live with it everyday. What I told myself when we decided to scream at the fates one more time was that I would rather stare my fears in the face, risk and all, than look back later in life with any regrets that I didn't at least try.<BR/>I hope the pain lessens and the struggle gets at least a little easier, for both of you.k@laklyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05366772609212990882noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-398826425080805683.post-50420271632391359452008-06-16T23:04:00.000-04:002008-06-16T23:04:00.000-04:00Hang in there STE...and no, nope none of this is f...Hang in there STE...and no, nope none of this is fair. And no off handed comment or fate-tempting caused this or could have changed it. It just sucks.Ya Chunhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08816837461370619194noreply@blogger.com